out with the fanciful background..
it's giving me a headache too!
i still prefer black!
simple.

having random thoughts on my mind now..
it's messy but yet organized in a way..
a mind map kind of way..
Brain STORM!

i usually blog when i'm free @ work.. and since school has commenced and tma deadlines are getting closer, i have been trying to finish up my tma during free time @ work.

which means i'm carrying all my tmas, study guides and lecture notes to and fro work and back home.
i did not even read my books now in mrt, even if i have the time, i will rather close my eyes and rest them or read my notes instead of reading books..

life's is picking up @ work too.
i guess with the financial crisis that is happening over at US, u may think that life will be slow @ work isn't it?
but things are really picking up!
guess when u could not make things happen 'outside' ( buying and setting up new servers and stuff ), u tend to improve on your internal infrastructure.
and unfortunately, I'm called to action cuz i'm the person who is in charge of the folder rights, user rights person.
basically, tidying up the various department bad habits la..

after 2 years plus in the IT line..
i have realized that..

i simply hate to support users!
I'm not a help desk support person.
i hate network issue, it's much too troublesome to troubleshoot every and EVERY 'link'
having said that, i'm left with the "permissions", "Access Rights", account creations and of cuz the job that hire me for "help desk system support"

been talking to one of my closer colleagues in IT some time back..
I've been saying that i think i really didn't learn much here and blah blah blah..
he say it's not true. u just did not realized it cuz u are learning new stuff everyday and it's just that it's those small things that add to your knowledge.

i refused to believe him.

until just now, when i was taking bus home from my boss cny treat @ some place in bugis.
(i have also been thinking more on my boss actions since I'm learning organization behavior, trying to relate theories to real life you see..)

i used to tolerate joey boi's temper cuz he is the only guy that could help me do whatever he is supposed to do ( i'm the basic level, assigning of tickets, he is the man to do the job)
i will freak out if i'm in charge of stuff that have anything to do with the server.
there's too much steps, too much procedure, too much areas to look out for..
all without a manual guide. it's a do as u learn thing in crocs culture.

i will totally freak out.

and yet now, i'm in charge of everything that is related to the server, i'm to create permission, break permission and stuff..
might sound easier but there's tons of steps involved.
and frankly speaking joey is not exactly a very patient man.
moreover, i'm still very pissed over his "blocking" and hence "deleting" me from my skype.
it's one stupid thing of me to try to please everyone, it's impossible i know..
i just couldn't stand if anyone if angry with me..
even if i totally can't stand them too!
i'm just being me!!
perfectionist. everyone must like me!
haa..

i have side tracked again!
another of my bad habit.
trying to relate too many things into one..
but it's like mind mapping u know..
u link, link and link..

anyway.. yea. so now i'm like totally comfortable with the server thing..
i guess i really did learn something new in IT


anyway..
back to my work..
i mean everyday without fail i will bring all my tma's to work to do during my free time..
but i seem to have none now.. due the "cleaning up internal mess thing going on"

and i guess my admin is gonna leave as and when she wanted, cuz she's not really into the job in the first place, so i better not rely on her that much..
which also means that it's pretty unpredictable when she will AWOL and leave me with the assigning of tickets and stuff.
i mean of cuz i am able to handle it.
i have been doing all those for nearly 2 years!
but part of the reason they hire her is to off-load me a little..

been pondering over why i chose IT.
it's the stubbornness in me again

i remember that every time when my computer break down during my secondary school days, i will need to rely on my uncle to try to fix it.. and he will drag drag drag..
which i totally hate hate hate..
i mean, computer @ secondary school is basically cannot leave without la!
but he drag, drag drag.. so in order to spare myself from the agony of waiting around for other people help.
i started to read manuals, to troubleshoot, to DIY.

i guess i really hate to rely on anyone.
no one could be counted on to do your stuff!
not even your family and friends..

so i just went into IT after i came out of Secondary.
got conned by Poly to take lame course, so after 3 years i'm out in the work field again.
so i just chose the simple way out.
i chose IT again.

i just like to solve my IT problem that allow me to do my stuff asap ( everything is centered around computer in this age and time, tell me which one does not?! )

so i dun really like IT
but yet. my degree course i chose something related to IT again!
Business Analytic!

i think everything i want a easy way out, my mind automatically chose IT over any other things.