Thoughts of Closie:

sometimes i just feel that love is so complicated~
can i afford to give the love i saw just a matter of hours ago?
can i do what he did?
i'm afriad not..i love myself...
incapable of loving the other person so much
geez.. i dun even admire anyone for a few years already~is tt normal?

being the person incapable of loving..
i tend to see the worst side of the relaionship..
how come one love the other so much and yet misunderstand each other soo much?

is that what people always says.. "u expect more from ur lover than of ur friends?"
if that's the truth..than it should be TWO person giving and taking..

how come i only see one person giving and giving~and the other taking and taking~how come the one giving is greifing so much and the one taking is doing those hurtful things to the one who loved him so?

is that how love is being operated?

*pondering*

let's quote an exmaple..
taker: i want a letter..
giver: i need some time..
taker: so ya so busy that u cant write me letter?
taker: since u so busy dun need to send me emails le.. dun waste the time typing emails to me.. busyman..
giver: ....
*arguements....*

did tt taker ever think of why the giver wanna some time to write the letter?
did tt taker really think tt the giver WiLL NOT give her what she longed for?
did tt taker really think tt the giver will JUST give her A LETTER?

i dun understand..why.. being the person that the giver is..( and the taker should know him better than anyone else.. the one who saw and knew how sensitive the giver is..)
it's so obvious that the giver WUN just give a letter for the sake of giving..

noo.. tt giver will go the way out to decorate it..
put in some pic and make the PLAIN letter so unqiue and full of details..
the end product will so overwhelming when the taker finally get holds of it..tt why it needs takes time..

taker: i'm a burden..stop sending me things
giver: no u are not.. and dun ask me to stop sending things to u

does the taker knows tt the giver is missing her so much tt sending things to her is counted as .."i care for u.. i wan u to settle down there nice and comfortable.. with wat u wanted there with u.. "
and by asking the giver to stop sending is like cutting the drive outa the giver?

haiz...

is that call love =)

hopefully i have not offended anyone with MY THOUGHTS..
just what i feel abt some stuff~if u dun agree than too bad..

damn i'm feeling crappy..
my throat hurts SO MUCH!
i have a sexy voice~~ but when i talk.. it hurts..
geez!